When you're lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you've just wandered a few feet off the path, that you'll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. The night falls again and again, and you still no idea where you are, and it's time to admit that you has bewildered yourself so far off the path that you don't even know from which direction the sun rises anymore ...

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lagi dan lagi

Aku yang di sini,
membutakan hati, menutupkan pintu akal
pura-pura tak merasa apa, tak mengerti
konon hal kau dan aku sedikitpun tak melibas hati
dusta

apa gunanya,
meski aku melontarkan bait bait isi jantungku
mahupun limpa kalau kau mahu kan tapi
kau tetap kata aku yang menyulam semua cela
terpekik terlolong aku pun belum tentu mampu buat kau berfikir
ah, kau saja yang putih